Luke 8:22-25
"It’s not right, really. It just doesn’t work out. The prophets made their promises hundreds of years ago. The priests keep making promises today. They promise and promise. Nothing comes of them. It just isn’t right."
The other fishermen on the boat were used to this. They knew Delos well enough. They just let him go on. And on.
Rough weather was not uncommon on Lake Tiberias, as the Romans called it. The Jews called it the Sea of Galilee. But the name did not matter.
This lake was the livelihood, even the life, of the few thousands who lived on he shores. It controlled their lives in many ways. The economy was about fishing. The fresh water even supplied small gardens for the families. But it was not an easy life.
When the winds and rain came hard, they put a lot more pressure on people such as Delos. Sometimes it seemed to be more than he could handle. Delos seemed to flip out from the wind and rain and all the stress of his life. The others just let him talk. They could do nothing else.
"I have done nothing to deserve this. Oh, I have made my mistakes, sure enough. Nothing I have ever done should cause this." The sound of a bitter man mumbling to himself is always a scab on this world.
Delos made those around him very uneasy. They knew he was no direct danger to his neighbors and partners. Their problem was that they did not know how to help him, except by letting him talk to himself in their presence. Perhaps he could work past his grief and his struggle. They did not know what else to do.
They were also afraid of his bitter words. If those words should find their way to the Romans, they would invite trouble. These invaders would assume some manner of group revolt from the fishermen. They would crush the assumed revolt without question or remorse.
Delos’ faithfulness to his beloved Samantha, his son, the temple and even to the Romans themselves would count for nothing. A revolt must be crushed. Any revolt. Crushed, and crushed hard.
Delos raised his son alone. His beautiful wife died young, many years ago. These were hard years for Delos and his son, but they still went by too quickly. Too soon came the time for Delimon to look to the horizon for new life. Too soon came the time for Delos to begin to relax his hold on the next generation of the family. Too soon came the time for Delos to be alone in the world. He could only remember the good years with Samantha and Delimon.
Delimon quickly grew into a strong, mannerly, polite young man. Delos sometimes smiled privately at his handsome son. Delos could see the attraction between the son and the young women of the town. Delos enjoyed watching his son become the target of romantic notions.
Every girl around the lake, it seemed, watched him as he grew to manhood. His laughter and his obvious concern for those around him brought the attention he craved after the death of his mother.
Delos enjoyed having Delimon around, really. Supporting him was a lot of extra work at first. Caring for the household needs and guiding Delimon added hours to his day. He did not feel burdened for long, though.
He could see Samantha’s smile in Delimon’s eyes and face lines. His skin reminded Delos of her touch. His laughter was like hers, gentle and easy. Neighbors and strangers chose to be around Delimon. Delimon made good company for a lonely Delos who mourned the death of his wife through the rest of his life.
The pride of Delos' life grew to near-manhood. At fourteen, Delimon spent most of his time working and studying and growing. Young men and women have taken this pattern of personal development since time began.
The worldly Syrian capital of Damascus is a great arena for learning skill and grace. Living in Damascus was great training for one who had designs on a higher position in the world. Delimon learned to see himself as a ranking officer of the Roman Government. He saw himself as a leader of men, maybe in the military.
Delimon also thought he might build a business, an international import-export system. He saw the potential for profit in the trading he witnessed along the great caravan routes. He listened and watched the people around him. He learned about other peoples on the far sides of the earth. Soldiers and traders and diplomats of Spain and Egypt and India covered Damascus. These travelers were as much parts of his life as were the Greek alphabet and the Roman Legions.
Even with this in his mind, though, Delimon stayed close to his father. From Damascus, Delimon began to travel around the region. He could always be home in a few days. Sometimes he could catch a ride on a passing chariot, or help with a caravan in return for a horseback or camelback ride. Sometimes they could only send letters to each other.
As the young man grew, Delos could only offer some small advice to his son. "Pay attention to the caravans. Watch what sells and what doesn’t."
Sometimes Delos could only sit and listen to the new generation. Delimon spoke with ease and wonder at all he had seen. The market place and the government halls teemed with life every day.
Finally it was time for Delimon to serve his six years in the Roman Legion. The army of Syria enforced Roman law over the area, from the land of ancient Babylon to Egypt and Asia Minor. Delos did not own a slave to send in place of Delimon. He had no money to pay someone else to go. Delimon had to walk his own path now.
He wrote home a few times over the first two or three years. These were just short notes to his father. Letters were hard to send from campaigns in far countries of the Empire. The final message did not come from Delimon, but from another soldier. This note has meant bitterness and sorrow for families and nations around the world.
"Yehula, the supreme commander of the armies of the sovereign nation of Syria, regrets to inform you of the death of Delimon bar Delos. You may be proud of him. He died fighting for the most noble cause of all. He died to save the empire from its enemies.
Hail mighty Caesar!"
That was the end of Delimon bar Delos, son of Delos of Damascus. Twenty years of hope. Twenty years of joy and sorrow. Twenty years of seeing in the son the life of the mother.
It was not the end of his memory. It was not the end of the hurt, or the pride, or the love. It did not end the bitterness of Delos.
Somehow Delos knew he would keep his bitterness forever. He would be bitter toward the Romans and toward God and toward life itself until the day he died. He began to drift away from making leather goods, shoes and harnesses and belts. Finally Delos gathered his knives, awls and punches into a simple knapsack. He carefully wrapped and packed into the knapsack the remaining articles from the life of his beloved wife. Then, with a last quick glance around, closed the door of his tiny home. Delos never went back.
Delos drifted south, stopping long enough in several villages to earn enough for a few meals. Finally he made it to the shores of the Sea of Galilee. The Romans had renamed it Lake Tiberias. Delos began to work around the area, selling his handiwork. The lonely widower never left.
Eventually Delos began to work on another man’s fishing boat. A hired hand had a better chance to make a day’s pay. He could keep up his leather work at night when he had was nothing else to do but mourn his wife and son. The other men went home to their families, but for Delos there was only the leather.
Day after day, Delos worked hard in the boat. Spreading the nets and hauling them in repeatedly all through the day was tough. The struggle and the sweating and the tired muscles were a gift. They kept Delos from losing himself in self-pity. He rebelled in his heart against mourning the loss of both his wife and their only child.
Then at night Delos whiled away time repairing the nets and re-pitching the boats. The others laughed and joked or spent time with their own families. Delos was driven by life itself. He worked as hard as possible to banish away the thoughts of rebellion and death and divine betrayal.
Delos spread the hot pitch on the seams of the boat using a crude hand-carved paddle. He wondered quietly where and how Delimon had died. He was bitter at the military establishments of Rome and Syria. These military geniuses had taken his only son to a violent death.
Delos thought of the good times the two of them had shared. They were few but powerful. Delos could only weep as the flood of memories came over him. The images of fishing together and running together filled his senses. They almost brought the boy to life again in the heart of the father.
The father also remembered the bad times. He was mad at himself for wasting even a moment of the days shared with Delimon. Father and son had known disagreements, even yelling matches. Thankfully, though, Delos and Delimon were close when Delimon left to serve in the legion.
Delos thought about the young excitement in Delimon. He had seen the wonder in his son's eyes at the rising sun. Delimon liked people. He had a gentle way with older friends and relatives. Almost everyone liked Delimon, especially the young women.
Delos appreciated the pretty girls who came around looking for his son. Now that Delimon was gone, still two or three regularly stopped to see if he had written. Now with Delimon was slain in battle, only one still checked on the old man of thirty-five.
Perhaps most important, Delimon had known great hopes for marriage and children of his own. Grandchildren might be around for Delos to adore in his own old age. Any of these who stopped would be quite acceptable as daughters-in-law. Not quite yet.
Now Delos was angry with God. God took the life of the son. If Delos could ever get this God in a corner, he would tell God a thing or two. Delos knew now God didn't care. War still went on. Young men still died. Delimon was not coming back, not even in a box. The survivors just bury the slain where they fall, these young men who die in battle. Often the soldiers have no time for even a simple ceremony.
Delos wrapped himself now in so much bitterness he was not aware of the world around himself. He did not see that some of his partners were on a mission. They were spending their evenings and the stormy days with a traveling teacher and prophet. They claimed to have even seen him perform miracles.
Delos tuned out their conversations in the boats when they talked about this man. Delos did not hear when they talked about the teacher. His own pain was deafening when they asked each other if Jesus were the Messiah. Delos kept to himself more every day. He even became a recluse to his own friends.
One clear spring day, fishing had been good. The men in the small fleet of boats saw a crowd gathered on the shore. This was unusual because the site was some distance from any town. Anyone standing out here must expect something big to happen. This looked like an eager crowd.
Delos could see the people seemed to gather around someone who must be a teacher or an entertainer. That was fine. In fact, it was very good.
Perhaps a chance to sell some fish to the crowd would come. They were probably hungry. People always want to eat. They might as well have been at a carnival or at a fair. What could be more satisfying than fresh fish, slowly roasted over an open fire?
The man was talking to the crowd as the boats neared the shore. While he talked, the men from the boats quickly sold cleaned and salted fish to the crowd. Soon small driftwood fires were blazing at several places along the shore. Some sharp entrepreneurs in the crowd saw an opportunity as the crowd began to cook and eat the fish.
Waiting at the boat, Delos was curious about the teacher. One of the crowd came to buy some fish and asked Delos’ opinion. "Do you know who this man is? Some say he is the son of God. What do you think?"
Delos looked again and laughed. "What? That loafer? The one they call the son of God? You make me laugh! I've seen him out on the boat. He can't even row a straight line. He doesn't look like anything special to me. If he's a Son of God, I would not want one of them to marry my sister."
About then, Jesus asked them to take him across the lake. He knew a few of the men. While the crowd finished their meal, Jesus and the small group of men climbed into their fishing boat. Once away from shore, Jesus, obviously tired, quickly went to sleep. While he slept, the others worked the sails and nets. They could fish their way across the arm of the Sea of Galilee.
Out on the lake, just as all the nets were out and filling with fish, a squall blew up. A squall on the Sea of Galilee can be a vicious blow. Air currents often rise off the hot land around the lake. Then they combine with cool air coming off the lake or coming inland from the Mediterranean. Together these can raise the wind to gale force in a matter of seconds. Such a blast can also reduce to calm air just as quickly.
Winds swirl and scream in every direction. Rain and hail rips at the sails and clothing. Lighting can wipe out entire boat loads of men. When the gale struck, the little boats were in serious danger. The builders did not rig them for so many people and so many fish and so much wind.
The men shouted and cursed as they frantically hauled in the nets. They stumbled around, crudely grabbing the blowing sails in their arms. The wave-tossed men struggled with the oars and tillers to keep from capsizing. They fought back panic as they struggled to reach the shore without attracting a bolt of lightning. The din of the wind and the men and the clattering boats and wooden equipment overcame any voices.
The open boats were in danger of swamping. Every wave dumped more water into the craft. The wind threatened to rip apart the sails and masts before the men could get them down. Heavy gusts whipped the boat around as if it were a piece of bark. Lives were going to be lost if the wind kept up. Some began to panic, fearing for their own lives.
The teacher, asleep in the front of the boat, never stirred. Finally, seeing the man asleep, Delos shook the man roughly. "Wake up! Wake up! Don't you care if you drown, you fool?"
The man wearily sat up and opened his bloodshot eyes. His dreams had taken him far away. Water cascading over the bow of the tiny boat brought him to reality. The spray from the rain and the waves was drenching him through. He looked around at the towering seas. He felt the water in the bottom of the boat and heard the mast beginning to break.
The man lifted his eyes to the heavens as if searching for some clue, some guidance. Then he spoke quietly, yet it seemed to Delos as if the voice echoed off the hills miles away. His words masked even the thunder of the storm and the cries of the men.
"Silence!"
It seemed the whole world stopped. The waves eased off to a gentle roll. A great gust dropped to an easy breeze.
The men on the boats stopped their struggling and stood in amazement. The shock and surprise of what had just happened quickly sat in.
For an incredulous moment, Delos forgot his anger over the death of his son. "Gosh, that guy back on the shore said you were the son of God. I didn't believe him. Anyone who can make the wind and the waves stop in their tracks must have some divine power of some kind."
Again, stunned silence as the other men wondered what to say or do. Nothing in their experience had prepared them for this. No one anticipated seeing the very storms obey the quiet voice of one strong man.
Delos, though, composed himself. He had still more to say. "Do you know what I think about you? Even if you are really the son of God? You are not really worth one little bitty fish scale. Not worth a thing."
"You sit up in the front of the boat. You sleep away while the rest of us work. We fish and break our backs on these fool boats just to survive and keep going. You talk and talk and do nothing. You act as if we should treat you like a king. So you can make the sea go calm. Big deal!" Delos began to find his fire. It was as if he finally had God in a corner.
"So who besides ourselves cares whether we drown or not? No one, that's who. You and your supposed father are too busy playing dominoes with the clouds and the seas. Go ahead and chase the clouds away. It doesn't matter to me or anyone else, anyway. Nothing you do matters."
"If you want to do something constructive, why don't you do something about war and about death? Do something about our kids killing each other."
Now Delos was feeling a strength from this man. Something about this man gave the frustrated Delos power to dump it all out now. He quickly seized the precious time of strong words to purge his soul.
"My wife died giving birth to my son. So I raised Delimon in the best way I could. It wasn't easy, but I loved her so much and I loved him. I did everything I could for him. I am proud of the way he turned out. But now he is dead. My son has died fighting some stupid war for some unknown purpose in some far-off god-forsaken land. Nothing about it even matters. It does not matter to me, or to you, or to anyone else."
"So why don't you at least stop people from killing each other. If you are the son of God, it seems you could do at least that."
Now the bitterness of Delos' heart was coming out. It was falling all over everyone in the boat as if it were a cataract on the Nile River. The spray of tears from the broken heart covered every man on the boat.
"Oh, but pardon me, I forgot. If you are the messiah, you don't know anything about death. You will never die."
"Well, maybe God won't do anything, but I have to. I cannot stand by and see other young men die in useless battle. These battles are just action by greedy human beings."
"Maybe it isn't God's affair, but it is my affair. I have to do something. Maybe you are right. God doesn't start wars, people start wars. I wish God cared! That's all I ask. I wish God cared about me and my son."
"God should care enough to live with what we humans have to live with. Maybe he would, if God had to die the way we have to die. Maybe God ought to have to die with a spear in his side. Maybe God should feel the whip on his back before he dies. Maybe God ought to know the feel of the spittle of enemies before death comes. I should feel better about God. I probably would if I thought God could ever know these things."
Jesus thought ahead. He tried to see into the future. The son of Mary wondered how he would die. He wondered about a spear in his side. He wondered about the whip.
The little boat was now nearing shore. Even yet no other man on the boat had spoken. No one knew words to say, either to Delos or to Jesus. As the boat slid upon the beach sand, Jesus turned to Delos.
"Delos, it may be you are the one who is pure. Will we know you as a true son of God? What does the father require of us? The Lord only wants us to present ourselves before him in purity and in faith?"
A year later a governor, a priest and the temple crowd sent Jesus to death. They called him a revolutionary. They branded him a rebel. The priests named him a heretic. Guards beat him until he could no longer carry his own cross. Soldiers nailed him to that cross and derisively crowned him ‘King of the Jews.’
Then Jesus died. His power was gone. They thought.
Meanwhile, Delos Yeshua lived on.
